One of the hardest jobs.

If you’re a struggling writer like myself, you understand where I come from when I say writing is tough.

It’s a struggle everyday. It’s not like I wake up in the morning and sit by the window and the words just flow out. The inspiration just over comes me! So artistic!

No it’s nothing like that.

It’s like….

1. wake up. Snooze button, six to seven times. Depends how late I stayed up the night before playing video games.

2. feed cats. Watch them eat for 20-30 mins; dreading the day of writing ahead of me.

3. shower. 20-30 mins. Sometimes I’ll just sit in there. Not wanting to leave.

4. breakfast at  desk. I’ll eat and surf the web. After I’m done eating I usually continue to surf the web; Facebook, Yahoo news, Facebook. WordPress stats, Facebook. Twitter. Email. Facebook. WordPress stats. Yahoo news.

When I finally realize how much time I have wasted… I finally start writing — 5+hrs

As of now, I don’t make a living on my writing, but someday, I plan too. So therefore I must write like I am getting paid. If I don’t, then I’d fail.

A day job is what pays my bills, puts ink in my printer, gas in the car and wine in my glass. Currently I have a job in service. Dealing with people. Can I help you? You looking for something? Anything else I can help you find, you helpless human being you?

I can say that my job in service is so much easier than the writing I force myself to do everyday. Sure there’s hard days; days when I leave tired and physically drained. But never have a felt the way I do, after a long day of writing. When I’m at work I don’t actually look forward to getting out, because I know I have to go home and write. That’s how much I dread doing it. I once read a quote that really sticks out to me.

“I hate to write, but love to have written”. That’s just the way it goes. This sums it all up.

The shear mental endurance a writer must have is ridiculous. I can sadly say I don’t think I’m there yet. Some days I’m just OFF. I’m tired, lazy and downright mad at the world. See at a job, you go there, you clock in and you do what you have to do. You know what’s expected of you. But to be a writer, especially one that doesn’t get paid, you have to do your job without anyone telling you, without any pay and with every distraction in the world. I could easily, get off the computer and go play video games. No one is going to stop me. No one is going to tell me to get writing. It’s all free-will. And that’s what makes it it tough. It takes you and you only to make your self do something. And sometimes, it just doesn’t happen that way.

This is just covering the part of getting work done. Producing good writing is a whole another battle. But I am convinced the more you write, the better you become. So……MORE WRITING= BETTER WRITING.

I find my self sleeping on the floor. Staring at my cats. Long showers. Amazon shopping. Texting. Emailing. Handicapping the race program. It goes on and on. This is my daily grind. Sounds awful, I know.

But eventually the writing gets done. I get my words on paper and up to this point, I’ve accomplished my goals. I always try to push myself, testing that mental endurance.  Slowly but surely I’m getting there…

-REH

2 thoughts on “One of the hardest jobs.

  1. Jax Martin June 15, 2012 / 6:01 pm

    “I hate to write, but love to have written”….. now my favorite quote! You will not be a writer, because you already are one. The world just has to get to know you 🙂

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